Ndoto Toto

All in a day’s work

safaritonirvana — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 09:28:23 +0000

Some time last week, i was running late and decided to share the conductor’s seat in a matatu, even though it is against the law. (I wonder if it is really, cause i constantly seeing it being done these days).

The only thing that i didn’t figure when i was making this decision, was that the conductor was twice my size!

I don’t know about your experience, but in my many years of travelling by matatu, touts are usually quite slim… But this guy, sheesh! His ass size was twice mine, and the seat was not exactly designed to have both our bottoms (and mine has increased in size quite a bit recently, blush) on it. The guy had no qualms squishing me on the seat until i literally had only a quarter of my bum on the seat, and the rest of me in the space between his seat and the next. He had no qualms either expecting me to pay the full fare (which in fact, i did!).

I must tell you, it was quite the ride… very uncomfortable indeed, and i only felt worse when getting to my stop, there was another matatu (same route) that had not been filled, and if i had had just a little patience, I would have had a more comfortable ride at the same price .

Well, at least there was a lesson learnt from this experience. Actually, more than one!

Never share a seat with a tout, no matter what his butt size!
Leave the house early, not only to get to work on time but to also have a choice on which matatu to take
Patience pays

Optimism

safaritonirvana — Wed, 11 Mar 2009 06:45:50 +0000

Wow! Today, i feel kinda great… Deep down in my gut, i feel like something big, something wonderful is about to happen…

I am downright excited. I’m at that point where you feel like you just want to stand and shout or scream in joy but can’t just yet. It reminds me of how i was both excited and scared after my final exams on campus when there was the possibility that i would get First Class Honours but wasn’t so certain…

Siiiiigh

In the past month or so, I have developed a keen interest in technology and the trends in technology, especially for Africa. I have began to become excited about the possibilities for this untapped home of ours called Africa. The thought of the differences there would be just by having accessibility to the internet for information, just the same as anyone else in the developed world.

I watched a presentation by Eric Schmidt, CEO of Google, yesterday evening, and found his thoughts on the future of technology very interesting. Watch it here: http://video.google.com/videosearch?q=eric+schmidt&emb=1&aq=f#

Anyway, i digress…

I think its just wonderful to have a positive mindset, to be an idealist, to be an optimist….because it means that my life will always be worth living, it’ll be full of love and laughter, and as such, i’ll always have something to look forward to!

I Accept

safaritonirvana — Tue, 10 Mar 2009 10:54:40 +0000

Daily Acceptance Prayer

Author Unknown

I accept myself completely.
I accept my strengths and my weaknesses,
my gifts and my shortcomings,
my good points and my faults.

I accept myself completely as a human being.
I accept that I am here to learn and grow, and
I accept that I am learning and growing.
I accept the personality I’ve developed, and
I accept my power to heal and change.

I accept myself without condition or reservation.
I accept that the core of my being is goodness and
that my essence is love, and
I accept that I sometimes forget that.

I accept myself completely, and in this acceptance
I find an ever-deepening inner strength.
From this place of strength, I accept my life fully and
I open to the lessons it offers me today.

I accept that within my mind are both fear and love, and
I accept my power to choose which I will experience as real.
I recognize that I experience only the results of my own choices.

I accept the times that I choose fear
as part of my learning and healing process, and
I accept that I have the potential and power
in any moment to choose love instead.

I accept mistakes as a part of growth,
so I am always willing to forgive myself and
give myself another chance.

I accept that my life is the expression of my thought, and
I commit myself to aligning my thoughts
more and more each day with the Thought of Love.
I accept that I am an expression of this Love.
Love’s hands and voice and heart on earth.

I accept my own life as a blessing and a gift.
My heart is open to receive, and I am deeply grateful.
May I always share the gifts that I receive
fully, freely, and with joy.

Reflection

safaritonirvana — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 07:25:18 +0000

Today is one of those days I am feeling particularly deep.

Maybe its because its a Monday, maybe its cause its the beginning of a new month… I think though that it is because its March already, and i am wondering whether i am going anywhere with the thoughts and dreams I had for myself for 2009.

I know i have said this over and over again but today, I am dead serious! I am worth every dream I have and i am soooo going to work towards achieving them. I am so f-ing tired of bull shitting myself with the words “One day this…” “one day that…” Today is the only day i am sure about so I’d better make it worth it!

So, I call myself a dreamer, here I go, taking one of many steps, through this blog, towards making them come true!